Monday, August 14, 2006

How much change can a girl handle?

Last week I went to Asheville for a job interview and it was awful. While they found me a likely candidate for the job, I would have rather lost a finger than worked that job. Still, I truly believed that the Lord wanted me there...so I had a bit of a quarter-life crisis. I had to face the question of what I really want to do with my life and what I can do since getting hurt.

Ever since I was in seminary, and even more since I've been at my church here at home, my desire to serve people in a real, tangible way has grown and grown. As I've learned about the world and God's work in it, it seems that bringing people more than the gospel is necessary for the sake of the gospel. So the question that plagued me is how do I do that? What can I do?

Then I got hurt and need time to get better before going overseas, hence the job interview in Asheville that was a disaster, and the question that plagued me for so long hauled off and hit me like a ton of bricks. What can I do? Then I was hit again, by an answer. It was something I'd pondered for years, voiced rarely, and finally had the guts to tackle...I am going to nursing school--yes, nursing school.

With a BA, I can get my nursing degree from UNC in 14 months or from Duke in 16 months. Before that, I have to get a few prerequisites out of the way. So, tomorrow, I am moving up to Asheville for 9 months to take said classes before applying to nursing school, which means I can be a nurse in 2 years, and then go overseas as a nurse soon after with a skill that can meet so many needs, give me a way to reach the unreached, and have time to heal up and be 100% physically.

I can't tell you how excited I am...its the first time I've been excited about something in a long time. I can't wait to live in Asheville with my dear mentor and to hang out with my friends there, to go to school and to become something that can really make a difference in people's lives. I'll be back in Raleigh, hopefully, by May--back in my beloved church, in school, and in the Lord's will.

So things are great...really great. Its unbelievable.

Sunday, August 06, 2006

Faithful to the end...

So I haven't been quite so faithful in my postings on this website, nor have I been faithful to many of you, but mostly, I haven't been faithful to my Lord. Thankfully my standing with Him depends not on my faithfulness but on His, and He is so faithful.

The past 6 weeks have been trying, I won't lie, but also so full of joy and gladness that I wouldn't trade the tears predecing for anything. Despite not having full mobility in my arms, or a job, or much money, I do have amazing friends, a loving church that is seeking God and moving forward in Him, and I have a Savior that never lets go.

This is a quick post, but I'll write more soon...right now I'm in Asheville looking into some job opportunities here. I'll let you know what happens...love you all!!!